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There are many religious traditions that tell us that the Divine could only reach human minds in the past and that any form of current psychic experience is either false or from an unacceptable or demonic source. Either human beings are by their biology capable, at least in a subset of individuals, of receiving Divine inspiration or they are not.
It is my hope that by describing in such great detail and openness my own experiences that others can use my story to help them in understanding their own experiences. In the Book 1, Science and Spirituality, I explain how each and every human brain is unique because we shape our own pathways in our brain due to our every choice and activity. Therefore the ability to receive Divine inspiration will be equally unique. We must all forge our own path to Divinity.
Most importantly I hope that my story will encourage you to believe that it is possible to receive visions from the Schechinah and therefore allow you to be open to receiving Divine love and inspiration. Express yourself creatively both in art and in science. It is only in partnership with the Schechinah that her love and light can be expressed in this world.
I understand all the energy exchange by having sex all the time with so many people keeps his entire life in chaos. I have been trying to ground him (without using sex...using sex is such a much more effective way). Instead of doing several dozen people in one week right now he is down to about 3 or 4 maybe. So, some of my grounding is helping. He also is a binge drinker..............and I understand how he uses alcohol to quiet his mind so he can sleep. And...he can't stand for people to touch or caress him. As a PTSD trained counselor I understand he has to have many childhood abuses he has not worked through. I am probably the only person that he allows to spend any time touching, massaging and giving Reiki. But I cannot fix all his issues overnight and not sure I ever could. I am also entitled to a decent life of tenderness and great energy sexual connections. This isn't getting that...but I do recognize our soul connection...........and so does he.
But..........I refuse to be a part of his sexual circus and prefer to stay on the edge of things. I need to find just one man that can focus for hours. I am used to sex several times a day. I taught my last partner how to be multiorgasmic (of course I have been for years...just move and I am there!)....he could make love for 7 hours. I miss that connection. Jason is all about quantity and speed........he is clueless what he is missing. And I suspect at age 27 he's just too young to focus and learn. He is an incredible athlete, has great focus when working out for 3 hrs.............but it has to be transferred to his sex life. Not sure that is what I should be doing. Would feel better if I could find someone in their 30s or 40s or even 50s maybe. Anyhow...our relationship has developed at least. I do feel the love between us. I may be one of the few women he may actually respect....me, his mother, his sister. But he equates sex with throwaway women. And then there's his anal obsession he indulges..........he's absolutely obsessed with getting his prostate and anus hammered by a guy. I explained to him there are many types of orgasms...and he just hasn't experience all of them and I would like to see him ignore his ass for a bit and learn an entirely new set of sensations. Hahaha.........
Now, this hasn't been the morning coffee read you were expecting...was it.....
All this should make you laugh...it makes us laugh.........we are always making jokes about his fat dick and how it won't fit me...it fits everyone else. Linda |